People can be so annoying sometimes.
Especially when it comes to politics. Everyone has an opinion. Which is great. But it's when the "enlightened" folks start hating someone for their differing opinion, that's where I take issue.
Example.
This Rush fella, while back he mentioned that he didn't like what our new Pres was planning and that he did not want those plans to succeed.
And then some folks on the other side of the aisle shit a brick wall over the fact that the super right-wing conservative guy who's widely known for his right-wing views, doesn't want what he sees to be policies that are bad for this country to come to fruition.
Really folks???
Weren't all these same people saying worse things about our last president??
Aren't they still?
And not to mention the fact that being conservative is practically like being a leper to them.
Come on!!! The hateful words are being slung from BOTH sides, ya'll!!
So far, EVERYONE I've listened to is guilty of Limbaugh-ing.
Yes, I said EVERYONE.
Whether or not you agree with the Pres, he is still the President of our country. Regardless of his politics, he is still our Commander in Chief. And therefore, I will treat him as such. Just like I treated the last guy, and like I will treat the next one.
What pisses me off, is when we demand our opinion to be heard, yet hate the person who disagrees with it.
Yeah... how is that "tolerant"??
Let Chuck be Chuck over in Chuckland. You don't need to go over to Chuckland and yell at Chuck for being Chuck.
rantrantrant...
Josh's sermon tonight was about Love and what it really is.
And while I was sitting there listening to him talking, and the points he was bringing up, some I was totally agreeing with, and some, maybe not so much, I started thinking about the way that I love.
My mom always says that I'm the really sensitive one. And it's true, I'm really sensitive, inside and out. I feel so much emotion sometimes that it's too much, and I have to push it away, and that's when I feel numb. My emotions take up a lot of my life, and that's why, I think, I get depressed so much, because when I'm sad, it's so strong that it's hard to move sometimes.
And my love, sometimes can take over. My love-related emotions within me often boil over and it hurts sometimes. Just thinking about how much I care for someone can bring me to tears sometimes.
This all sounds kinda... odd.
This is how I feel.
My... spirit and its emotions...
I don't know, but sometimes, I don't feel connected to my body because of this. And I need to do something to bring me back to earth, back to my body. So I pinch myself or I hug someone, or something similar.
Oh... ramble ramble ramble...
"Pull me in, don't let me drown.
This will not be easy, you'll have to hold me down.
Tie me up, don't let me run
Because another day without you is another lifeless one."
~'Wake' by Brightwood
I heard this band tonight, and this line slapped me across the face. Especially the "This will not be easy, you'll have to hold me down" part.
How many times has God had to basically hold me down to get the medicine down my throat. How many times has He endured my struggling and flailing, and waited out my tantrums.
How many more times will He have to?
Maybe that's just what he's doing now.
Maybe He's holding me down and waiting for me to stop kicking and screaming so that He can administer my treatment.
So maybe I'm not stuck here after all, I'm just... not ready.
But I feel SO ready.
I have for some time now, well.... maybe ready.
Like if He shoved me out there, I'm pretty sure I could keep afloat.
But maybe I'm totally wrong, and if He put me out there, I'd be the next Titanic.
Maiden voyage, and I'd end up at the bottom of the ocean, just a home for crabs.
I need to hear from Him.
You hear me?
I need to hear from you. Like now would be good for me.
Maybe I'm not even ready for Him to speak to me...
Maybe I need to shut up.
This is a brand-spanking-new blog.
Maybe it's symbolizing a new chapter in my life.
Maybe it's just a new blog.
Either way, here it is.
